Soul Notes

Where the Magic Happens...

2011-02-08T09:31:00.000-08:00

Bird-a-thon

2010-12-29T08:31:00.001-08:00

Butterfly World

2010-04-26T12:32:00.001-07:00

Double Rainbow

2009-09-23T11:55:00.001-07:00

Above - good pic from my balcony this morning...

Above - this morning - Pretty crappy pics as, once again, i was in the car...

Yesterday - This was one of the best double rainbows I had seen in a while,
but I didn't get a great shot as I was driving...

2009-09-23T11:09:00.001-07:00

Rainbow from my balcony once again this morning, just like last week -
rainbows two days in a row...

Morning Views

2009-09-10T12:28:00.001-07:00

Above is the view I woke up to this morning and below is a rainbow Nova and I saw when we got to her school yesterday morning...

ahhh, I love my job...

2009-09-10T12:24:00.000-07:00

2009-08-21T06:02:00.001-07:00

I really can't stand all of the typos in the text on this, but the images are lovely...

2009-08-20T07:33:00.000-07:00

HUMANKIND
be both

The week of Rainbows, Fireworks and Butterflies...

2009-08-13T09:39:00.001-07:00

2009-06-13T13:04:00.001-07:00

2009-05-18T11:12:00.000-07:00

gratefulness = Great-Fullness

Flower Abundance

2009-03-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

Today was a co-worker's B-Day, so she received flowers and some of the members are leaving for the season and have passed their flowers on to us...

2008-12-01T09:33:00.001-08:00

Mommy and Me

Cousin Nicole and Me

Point of View

Simple Complexity

2008-11-06T10:06:00.000-08:00

I picked this book up at the library to bring home to my DH.

We have an ongoing debate about "simple complexity". He says it can't exist; that everything is complex. I say that simple complexity is indeed a reality and we go back and forth constantly with illustrative examples.

In the end, it is all a matter of perspective...

But, I was thrilled to bring this home to show him and say "HA!" and we both had a few smiles and then went on with our evening.

I love my job...

2008-10-31T17:24:00.000-07:00

This is my view on my lunch break...can you taste the salt?

Discontinued and Unreachable Comfort Food...

2008-10-29T12:58:00.001-07:00

just one josta,
a tastykake snak Peanut Butter bar,
banana yoohoo?

twix peanut butter,
snyder picadilly salt & vin...

I'd like a Pizza Joe's personal pizza, half spinach, half veggie. I'd pay $100 for someone to send me some. I'll warm it up in the microwave...

2008-10-29T06:18:00.001-07:00

Here I am at my new desk at my new job.
I love walking to the beach at lunch time.
The on-site Chef makes delicious, complimentary lunches.
I've been sick all week but I'm trying not to let it show because I want to be here.

Be Good to Mother Earth: Win a Hummer!

2008-06-19T13:43:00.000-07:00

One of my biggest pet peeves in this world is Hummers. They are unecessary and it's completely ridiculous to be driving around in one on this flat-Floridian terrain.

Trying to compensate for lack-thereof in other areas, imho.

So, eating my delicious abused-cow guts burger from Burger King,

My greasy treat was packaged in this "recycled" bag.

"Be Good to Mother Earth" I happily read, with tips on recycling and such. Then I turn the bag around and see they're giving a Hummer away as part of the "Indiana Jones" hype.

Talk about anti-productive...

New Collage

2008-05-09T06:37:00.000-07:00

Life is Beachy

2007-12-05T16:19:00.000-08:00

You are my Sunshine

2007-10-06T07:15:00.000-07:00

Wheel of Time

2007-06-21T07:59:00.000-07:00

Wheel of Time

she speaks the language of glorious

dove mountaintops

she sees spheres and shouts...

proclaims she's seen all

she needed to see

all we are

the center of it all.

geometric syllables

unscientific calculations of the Heart.

gluttunous piggy pilgrims

of the sunset side.

are you equal at their feet?

somewhere,

we sharply share

an ultra fine point

in the middle of the mandala...

2007-06-18T19:46:00.000-07:00

A night in my head, on my bed...

Buddha Love

2007-06-08T18:45:00.000-07:00

FOOTPRINT OF BUDDHA

Let your love flow outward through the universe,

To its height, its depth, its broad extent,

A limitless love, without hatred or enmity.

Then as you stand or walk,

Sit or lie down,

As long as you are awake,

Strive for this with a one-pointed mind;

Your life will bring heaven to earth.

~~- Buddha

Journey Collage

2007-05-21T07:16:00.000-07:00

This collage was started back in Jan/Feb and I just completed it yesterday. A lot of thought and concentration went into the intention of this collage.

Technical Speller, 1st Edition

2007-05-16T09:24:00.000-07:00

2007-03-25T19:02:00.000-07:00

Extraordinary evening

Magnificent manifestations
Incomparable intellectual intercourse

Hearts humming together in tune
Souls singing significant songs

This is where we belong
---->Unified<----
Smiles signal our openness
Hugs and kisses are bountiful

The good vibrations creating
Champagne showers

Moments of mysticism
Sobhet, so to say.

A sharing of spirit
Everything happens for a reason…

This is our season,
Shine, baby, shine.

hookah honey

2007-03-23T19:31:00.000-07:00

Quatrain by Rumi

Tonight is the night.

It's the creation of that land of eternity.

It's not an ordinary night,

it's a wedding of those who seek Love.

Tonight, the bride and groom speak in one tongue.

Tonight, the bridal chamber

is looking particularly bright.

2007-03-03T14:17:00.000-08:00

Life is like a box of turtles...

morikami greens

2007-02-19T11:17:00.000-08:00

this is not a scrapbook,

this is my sparkling shrapnel.

a quest for clarification,

this new collage

of morikami greens

and lizard queens.

vina the reflection of mother gaia.

dream cycles,

seeking salvation -

equivocation of peace; sanctity.

equal opportunity

in discovering what defines bountiful beauty.

2007-02-18T20:20:00.000-08:00

2007-02-10T19:34:00.000-08:00

Morikami Japanese Gardens

2007-01-28T18:38:00.000-08:00

With mother-in-love here for the weekend, we visited the Morikami Museum:

Baraka

2007-01-23T20:02:00.000-08:00

It's hard to even form words about it.

lovely layout of our apartment...

2007-01-14T20:31:00.000-08:00

What will you do?

2007-01-13T20:19:00.000-08:00

http://www.countercurrents.org/cc-santos120107.htm

my wheels are spinnin'

2007-01-10T13:20:00.000-08:00

You can only go as fast as the slowest car in front of you...

Yes, this is my ride. Or, as Nova calls it, the Yellow Car.

We even made a little ditty about it...

"We're ridin' in the yellow car

yellow car

We're ridin' in the yellow car

Yippee! yellow car!"

in the middle of Dreams...

2007-01-03T06:50:00.000-08:00

i go to sleep,

and then i Wake Up.

amusing Self

2006-12-26T13:03:00.000-08:00

Poesie

2006-12-20T18:15:00.000-08:00

http://pods.zaadz.com/poesie

Elvanore...oh Elvanore.......

2006-12-08T20:46:00.000-08:00

Saki

2006-12-06T19:08:00.000-08:00

This is the kitty I had my heart set on, Saki, but he was already adopted by the time I inquired about him. So sad...

Another kitty will come along, I'm sure...

I will name him Kashmir. Kashi for short.

here, kitty kashi...

An Artistic Journey through St. Augustine, FL

2006-11-27T18:33:00.000-08:00

e.e., blessings

2006-11-20T15:10:00.000-08:00

e.e.cummings &, N, &: SEVEN POEMS, VII
--------------------------------------------------------------------------------

who knows if the moon's
a balloon,coming out of a keen city
in the sky--filled with pretty people?
(and if you and i should

get into it,if they
should take me and take you into their balloon,
why then
we'd go up higher with all the pretty people

than houses and steeples and clouds:
go sailing
away and away sailing into a keen
city which nobody's ever visited,where

always
it's
Spring)and everyone's
in love and flowers pick themselves

Rubaiyat

2006-11-17T19:26:00.000-08:00

Found a 1952 Edition of Rubaiyat of Omar Khayyam: As translated by Edward Fitzgerald. It has a quite stunning hardback cover. They don't make them like this anymore, you know?

Art at Work

2006-11-17T13:41:00.000-08:00

I just can't help
my Self, I see Post-Its and say: "What can I Create?"

my lastest collage

2006-11-16T10:42:00.000-08:00

This is the latest collage that I made. This was created with the intention of my hubby finding a fulfilling job. The day after I finished it, he was hired on to a new job! so far, so good.

"Sailing on a Sea of Words"

2006-11-16T10:40:00.000-08:00

I created this one rather quickly in the Summer of 2006. The intention was to give flight to my writing...

"Harmonious Home"

2006-11-16T10:37:00.000-08:00

I created this one in April 2006. It was a hard adjustment, moving again. I had the intention of creating a harmonious home and getting back into the groove with ourselves and routines as a family, giving us the best wishes for being happy.

"Sunshine"

2006-11-16T10:34:00.000-08:00

I also created this one in january 2006. I was missing the Sunshine State. Soon after the creation of this collage, it was decided that we were going to move back to Florida. Pennsylvania wasn't working out; we missed the tropical climate.

"New Year"

2006-11-16T10:31:00.000-08:00

I made this collage in January 2006 with the intention of having a better relationship with money and using it more wisely...

"Shine Nova Shine"

2006-11-16T10:28:00.000-08:00

I did this collage right after "Paris and Palm Trees". This one was obviously for my baby girl...

Paris and Palm Trees

2006-11-16T10:23:00.000-08:00

"Paris and Palm Trees"

This is the first collage I did during our first move to Florida.

2006-11-11T06:20:00.000-08:00

butterfly eyes...

poetry library

2006-10-26T16:29:00.002-07:00

you can access my poetry library by clicking on the link above...

a cup of hot tea would be nice. hookah?

undone

2006-09-28T17:32:00.000-07:00

nothing relevant,
lacking propensity...
forward momentum rewind.
unexpected events
unretained in memoirs.
no words to explain
unattained enlightenment.
hard to see through sullen shadows.
evading deepthought for fear of drowning.
mondaythrufriday
morning sip of coffee
run run run
no physicality involved.
the world revolving
and here i stand
still as
snailmail evolution.
unable, as of late,
to obtain placidity.

omg

2006-08-08T18:10:00.000-07:00

Surprise! Today is our 4 year wedding anniversary...and what do we get?? My husband gets laid off. We were starting to do so well with me going back to work after being off for two years with the baby. She just started getting used to daycare, and she loves it there... Now, I have to pull her out because we can't afford it and Daddy will be home to watch her, but still...it's not a stable situation... The world is spiraling down now...

Church of the Flying Spaghetti Monster

2006-07-29T18:21:00.000-07:00

Oh my god, this link is wild....

underneath language...

2006-07-09T18:50:00.000-07:00

शीघ्रम्
अत्र
जाग्रृत

एतदपि गमिष्यति

भक्ति

here
now
awake
this too shall pass

bhakti

i could see the squirrels, and they were merry

2006-07-09T18:38:00.000-07:00

Went to the Miami Museum of Science and saw Pink Floyd: Wish You Were Here and Led Zeppelin. A feast for the eyes and mind and Soul.

Today, my Birthday, we saw Pirates of the Carribean: Dead Man's Chest. It was a fun ride. Also, a feast for the eyes...

Time

2006-06-28T18:19:00.000-07:00

Time has been swirling and whirling around me. Not sure where the years have gone...

spring has sprung

2006-05-01T18:43:00.000-07:00

...southern sojourn... by B. Lee:

It is I,
my one of a kind
pieces of me,

i am fragmented paragraphs
i am upside-down sentences
and an unanswered question mark.

i am gathering moss,
wondering what it would be like
to be a rolling stone.

this once annually rocker chick
losing my original identity -
transformed into Mother Gaia.

wings slipping through the wind
air-dancing replaced with brick-laid walkways,
feet forced to touch the ground.
but,
i AM an ethereal Soul,
though hardly feather-light.

i will tiptoe to higher grounds,
explore what i have found:

fate in Ft. Lauderdale
Los Olas parasol
flame twirlers, belly dancers
hookahs humming & bubbling...

what wonderland have i walked into?

years of yearning,
sojourning,

have i at last, come Home?

~~~~
I wish you all a harmonious Home,
thank you.
05/01/2006"

spirals...

2006-03-31T10:41:00.000-08:00

for a while, it felt as if this Life was spiraling out of control. Things are settling nicely, though. Just so many life changes at once left my head spinning. It took me a minute to get back in the groove. I'm not going to claim to be completely steady on my feet just yet, but my head doesn't hurt so bad anymore. got a dose of sexual healing lastnight and i feel a lot better on the Homefront...i feel validated and loved.

morning walk at our new Home...

2006-03-22T04:48:00.000-08:00

home sweet Home

2006-03-17T09:22:00.001-08:00

beautiful birdsongs
tropical blooms; true colour
sky is blue again...

hurray for no-longer moving day!!!

2006-03-12T08:32:00.000-08:00

Thank the goodness of the Universe that moving day is done and over with. J and Jae have made it to Florida...

A few more days for me here in PA, but it will seem short.

I'm going to my Mother-in-love's house later today. Her birthday is tomorrow.

Life is good to me. I can't complain. I have wonderful friends that I was able to visit.

Shared sohbet with Alane.
Shared smoke with Autumn.
Shared champagne with Tasha to celebrate her return to the States and her relief from Army duties.
Saw my lovely Lily briefly, all too briefly, and her beautiful baby girl.
Saw Heather and had conversation over coffee.
I am stocked up for my Sim Social bar for a while.

It will hold me over in Florida until I can make new friends.
I will be seeing Robyn again which puts asmile on my face...

I am blessed.

Without Autumn, yesterday would have been a lot more stressful. She is an angel. An angel with good taste in music...

Anywho, I have a few more things to do before I leave here for Greenville.

Bhakti,
Bethany

Zoo, Snow, and Smoke

2006-02-26T07:35:00.000-08:00

Craziness at the Zoo. Not sure how long I'm going to stay when I get back into town. Being out here in the middle of nowhere is splendid. I might go home a few days early to finish my packing and enjoy my solitude. Drove home in a blizzard lastnight, reinforced my happiness in moving to Florida.

Having a difficult few weeks, but it will all slow down soon.

to Grandma's House we go...

2006-02-16T05:29:00.000-08:00

Bye bed
Bye daily lounge routine
Bye Books, beautifully bound books...
Bye Computer
Bye Mary Jane
Bye Naked Self walking around the house
Bye paintings on the wall
Bye Mountains
Bye Fairchance Park
Bye
Bye
Bye

Some of you, I'll see again soon. Others, well, we've had our fun...

my day in a nutshell...

2006-02-15T18:48:00.000-08:00

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep." ~Robert Frost

am: cloudy; pm:sunny

2006-02-15T18:34:00.000-08:00

Being without my Sun, I have a cloudy interior. This will make us cherish our moments more, though. We will be better off for it, but it is oh so hard...

I started the day feeling sorry for my self in my current situation. But then my truer Self steps in and all worries vaporize.

I took in the sights with my lense this afternoon,

We are surely leaving a beautiful landscape behind. I love the hills and valleys of PA. I wish I could take the countryside with me to the flat, swampy lands of FL.

But the ocean is good, too. Though I'm not fond of vast waters.

We also took a jaunt in the park...

Solitary

2006-02-14T16:25:00.000-08:00

This is the second day of the start of a new lifestyle. I will be Solitary, save for constantly keeping pace with my daughter, for the next month. In an area where I know NoOne. I'm not too thrilled about it, but it is a prologue to a nice patch of Paradise.

Back to this:

Away from this...

So, In Light of Love:

Happy Valentine's Day

::seasons change subtly::

2006-02-10T17:47:00.000-08:00

::seasons change subtly:: by B. Lee

Utne.com

2006-02-07T10:38:00.000-08:00

I highly recommend checking out the Utne Reader magazine.

"Understanding the next evolution"

Self-Realization

2006-01-31T09:16:00.000-08:00

breathe deep...

another day...

2006-01-30T10:00:00.000-08:00

i hear nova stirring in her crib. I have a few minutes left to my Self, so I'm making an entry. Pretty soon, paper will be obsolete and all we will have are .docs and blog entries. just a thought.

i'm trying to decided what to do with my day. I know laundry needs done and dishes ran, but i don't feel like it. I think I'll go to a store of some sort. I should go to the mall and get my wedding ring resized since I was finally able to pull it from my finger. I'm trying not to collect any more "things". I'm sick of being a constant consumer. I am intent upon creating a life of Simple Abundance for my family that I am now the matriarch of. I want to exist in the memories of others as a marvelous mother, most importantly in my daughter's memories of me.

Mandala Project

2006-01-28T19:10:00.000-08:00

Checking out the Mandala Project homepage. I'm really enjoying this latest phase. The last collage I did (i'll post a pic, soon) had many mandalas in it. And a lot of Sunshine!

Sunshine State, here I come...

I'm not sure how to handle my DH being gone away from us for so long. He'll be setting up his new job and our new rental home at the Cove. Then Nova and I will follow him down when he comes to move our worldy posessions. I'm trying to unload as much weight as possible. But I can't seem to part with any of my books or papers or crafty items. I feel these are useful for my Soul, so I keep them to use in the future. But as far as nic nacs, what's the point.

I agree with Daisy, it would be nice to be on a homestead and eat home made bread and hand grown veggies and such. This world is such a Matrix, I just don't see it happening. I think we Americans are just scared to have to invest Time into things. We fear so strongly of cutting our Time short on this Earth, but we spend so little time thinking or researching how we live now will effect our Grandchildren. What of their time? Will we have sucked up all of the ancient sunlight by then?

just a thought...

2006-01-27T09:05:00.000-08:00

we are rewarded not by
our cleverest rewordings,
but by the experiences
that make words uselss...

Nova

2006-01-25T06:56:00.000-08:00

NOVA

Return to Paris and palm trees?

2006-01-22T10:45:00.000-08:00

Wow, it's been a minute...

How things have changed since becoming a mother nearly 17 months ago...I am a completely, and contentedly, a changed woman. Entirely JOY-full. Never knew the meaning of the word until my daughter appeared.

Speaking of which, she is napping, and I have such a large gap to fill of memories gloriously indescribable.

So, rather than reliving: i will begin from here. All has changed, and so stays the same.

Blessings,
B. Lee

baby~tummy belly cast...

2004-07-14T18:02:00.000-07:00

well, so far so good, as far as pregnancy goes. The baby moves alot. Jeremy's number one reaction when he sees the baby 'morph' my stomach is "Holy Cow!"

i forget that noone else sees/notices it as much as i do, so now it's no big thing to me, but i do seem to drift off at times, watching my stomach move and dreaming about holding the baby.

that's really my main Want right now, is to hold my baby.

and to know whether it's a boy or girl so i can say its name... :)

the nursery is ready to go, all it needs is a little baby to occupy it. my cat will have to give up her favourite 'bed' soon, the diaper changing table.

5 more weeks...it's moving as slow as honey.

the baby weighs approx. 4 3/4 lbs. now. I'm measuring 34 inches. But i think i've grown since that last measurement. i go Monday for a pelvic exam. oh yay. the doc is going to check and make sure the babe is in position for delivery and all that.

I'm really torn between wanting to have a 'natural' childbirth, and what drugs i should take if i can't stand the pain. almost everyone is recommending an epidural, but i don't know if i'm comfortable with that. have any of you had experience with any other types of medication??

anywho, it's all good, i suppose. it's coming out either way. ;)

blessings,
bethany and baby~tummy

p.s.
got my bellycast done today. It was a miracle how it all worked out and is a really long story...short version: had no idea i would wake up this morning and get a belly cast done. The priginal "model" cancelled on the wonderful ladies doing a press release on the opening of their shop and they needed a pregnant lady right away (where are they when you need them??) so, i got a FREE cast done, and then it will be painted however i wish as soon as i know what i want painted on it. any suggestions??

compliments of

Mama & Me
Alane Jewel

Thank you!!!

::thinking on divinity::

2004-06-04T15:30:00.000-07:00

i revere,
these shootingstars.
for i have had the portended priviledge
of touching their tails of intensity
as their light reflected upon me, momentarily,
but glows upon my skin incessantly.

i remain,
a radiant planet with rings
and strings,
maiden wings...

and the terra incognita is my wonderland,
my rite of caste.

i have found at last,
a liquidpeace to perceive
that i have fulfilled one of manifold meanings
for Being:
creating my magnum opus:

the genesis of the next genetic generation.

what more could an artist ask for?
what greater poetic work could exist?

it is this miracle-in-the-making
that holds the whispers of the Beginning.
a union of surpassing lovejoy,
the wonderment of amorous acts,
leading to the delicious divineness of One.

this new endeavor of
mother and mentor
has begun.

where's my pillow??

2004-06-02T14:49:00.000-07:00

...this pregnancy deal is getting more difficult to bear as the days go on, and "it will only get worse before it gets better", a client informed me today. and "you're moving slower" an annoying co-worker said to me as i waddled down the hallway. No kidding. Thanks for regurgitating useless information to me, especially when i was already well aware.

...an overhwelming sense of bitchiness is overcoming me, and all i really long to do is stretch my tired body out on my oversized, comfortable forest green couches and veg out in front of a movie. i don't care about dinner. I know Jeremy will ask me when i walk in the door, "what do you want to do about dinner?", and i will reply, "I don't care. I'm too tired to care."

i just want a massage...some lotion. a comfy t-shirt. my Rajha-cat purring on my lap. Is that so much for a girl to ask? maybe a fudgesicle??

muscle relaxers would be nice. or a kiss from Mary Jane. or a sip of an ice, cold beer. But, no. Alas, my body no longer is mine, and mine alone, to intoxicate and numb. i must feel every ache, every twitch the baby makes (which has been my most enjoyable aspect of pregnancy, but after a while - enough is enough. too much of a good thing is not a good thing). But at least my baby is strong.

2 and 1/2 months (11 weeks) to go,
it can't come quick enough...

where's my pillow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

fireside...

2004-05-31T18:07:00.000-07:00

The tales you type with your fingertips inspire me to new heights.

I have been perplexed as of late, wondering when I reached my current plateau and how long I have been walking here. I have stories inside of me that have yet to be woven into a tapestry of words. It seems that I'm waiting for the right parchment to be placed on my table, or the perfect language to express the unexpressable...but after dreaming and waiting, i think it is time to learn to write on my forearms and inner thighs. Speak my words out loud so my baby~tummy can catch a glimpse of the wind that fills my sails.

I am a poet of simple complexities and, at times, contradictions. I want to smooth out my wrinkles in the silken stanzas, helping the simplicity shine through, so that even the passerby may understand for a moment the light that beams through my eyes.

The fireside was luminary and warm. Thank you kindly.