Time

Time has been swirling and whirling around me. Not sure where the years have gone...

spring has sprung

...southern sojourn... by B. Lee:

It is I,
my one of a kind
pieces of me,

i am fragmented paragraphs
i am upside-down sentences
and an unanswered question mark.

i am gathering moss,
wondering what it would be like
to be a rolling stone.

this once annually rocker chick
losing my original identity -
transformed into Mother Gaia.

wings slipping through the wind
air-dancing replaced with brick-laid walkways,
feet forced to touch the ground.
but,
i AM an ethereal Soul,
though hardly feather-light.

i will tiptoe to higher grounds,
explore what i have found:

fate in Ft. Lauderdale
Los Olas parasol
flame twirlers, belly dancers
hookahs humming & bubbling...

what wonderland have i walked into?

years of yearning,
sojourning,

have i at last, come Home?

~~~~
I wish you all a harmonious Home,
thank you.
05/01/2006"

spirals...

for a while, it felt as if this Life was spiraling out of control. Things are settling nicely, though. Just so many life changes at once left my head spinning. It took me a minute to get back in the groove. I'm not going to claim to be completely steady on my feet just yet, but my head doesn't hurt so bad anymore. got a dose of sexual healing lastnight and i feel a lot better on the Homefront...i feel validated and loved.

morning walk at our new Home...

home sweet Home

beautiful birdsongs
tropical blooms; true colour
sky is blue again...

hurray for no-longer moving day!!!

Thank the goodness of the Universe that moving day is done and over with. J and Jae have made it to Florida...

A few more days for me here in PA, but it will seem short.

I'm going to my Mother-in-love's house later today. Her birthday is tomorrow.

Life is good to me. I can't complain. I have wonderful friends that I was able to visit.

Shared sohbet with Alane.
Shared smoke with Autumn.
Shared champagne with Tasha to celebrate her return to the States and her relief from Army duties.
Saw my lovely Lily briefly, all too briefly, and her beautiful baby girl.
Saw Heather and had conversation over coffee.
I am stocked up for my Sim Social bar for a while.

It will hold me over in Florida until I can make new friends.
I will be seeing Robyn again which puts asmile on my face...

I am blessed.

Without Autumn, yesterday would have been a lot more stressful. She is an angel. An angel with good taste in music...

Anywho, I have a few more things to do before I leave here for Greenville.

Bhakti,
Bethany

Zoo, Snow, and Smoke

Craziness at the Zoo. Not sure how long I'm going to stay when I get back into town. Being out here in the middle of nowhere is splendid. I might go home a few days early to finish my packing and enjoy my solitude. Drove home in a blizzard lastnight, reinforced my happiness in moving to Florida.

Having a difficult few weeks, but it will all slow down soon.

to Grandma's House we go...

Bye bed
Bye daily lounge routine
Bye Books, beautifully bound books...
Bye Computer
Bye Mary Jane
Bye Naked Self walking around the house
Bye paintings on the wall
Bye Mountains
Bye Fairchance Park
Bye
Bye
Bye

Some of you, I'll see again soon. Others, well, we've had our fun...

my day in a nutshell...

"The woods are lovely, dark and deep.
But I have promises to keep,
And miles to go before I sleep,
And miles to go before I sleep." ~Robert Frost

am: cloudy; pm:sunny

Being without my Sun, I have a cloudy interior. This will make us cherish our moments more, though. We will be better off for it, but it is oh so hard...

I started the day feeling sorry for my self in my current situation. But then my truer Self steps in and all worries vaporize.

I took in the sights with my lense this afternoon,

We are surely leaving a beautiful landscape behind. I love the hills and valleys of PA. I wish I could take the countryside with me to the flat, swampy lands of FL.

But the ocean is good, too. Though I'm not fond of vast waters.

We also took a jaunt in the park...

Solitary

This is the second day of the start of a new lifestyle. I will be Solitary, save for constantly keeping pace with my daughter, for the next month. In an area where I know NoOne. I'm not too thrilled about it, but it is a prologue to a nice patch of Paradise.

Back to this:

Away from this...

So, In Light of Love:

Happy Valentine's Day

::seasons change subtly::

::seasons change subtly:: by B. Lee

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"Understanding the next evolution"

Self-Realization

breathe deep...

another day...

i hear nova stirring in her crib. I have a few minutes left to my Self, so I'm making an entry. Pretty soon, paper will be obsolete and all we will have are .docs and blog entries. just a thought.

i'm trying to decided what to do with my day. I know laundry needs done and dishes ran, but i don't feel like it. I think I'll go to a store of some sort. I should go to the mall and get my wedding ring resized since I was finally able to pull it from my finger. I'm trying not to collect any more "things". I'm sick of being a constant consumer. I am intent upon creating a life of Simple Abundance for my family that I am now the matriarch of. I want to exist in the memories of others as a marvelous mother, most importantly in my daughter's memories of me.

Mandala Project

Checking out the Mandala Project homepage. I'm really enjoying this latest phase. The last collage I did (i'll post a pic, soon) had many mandalas in it. And a lot of Sunshine!

Sunshine State, here I come...

I'm not sure how to handle my DH being gone away from us for so long. He'll be setting up his new job and our new rental home at the Cove. Then Nova and I will follow him down when he comes to move our worldy posessions. I'm trying to unload as much weight as possible. But I can't seem to part with any of my books or papers or crafty items. I feel these are useful for my Soul, so I keep them to use in the future. But as far as nic nacs, what's the point.

I agree with Daisy, it would be nice to be on a homestead and eat home made bread and hand grown veggies and such. This world is such a Matrix, I just don't see it happening. I think we Americans are just scared to have to invest Time into things. We fear so strongly of cutting our Time short on this Earth, but we spend so little time thinking or researching how we live now will effect our Grandchildren. What of their time? Will we have sucked up all of the ancient sunlight by then?

just a thought...

we are rewarded not by
our cleverest rewordings,
but by the experiences
that make words uselss...

Nova

NOVA

Return to Paris and palm trees?

Wow, it's been a minute...

How things have changed since becoming a mother nearly 17 months ago...I am a completely, and contentedly, a changed woman. Entirely JOY-full. Never knew the meaning of the word until my daughter appeared.

Speaking of which, she is napping, and I have such a large gap to fill of memories gloriously indescribable.

So, rather than reliving: i will begin from here. All has changed, and so stays the same.

Blessings,
B. Lee

baby~tummy belly cast...

well, so far so good, as far as pregnancy goes. The baby moves alot. Jeremy's number one reaction when he sees the baby 'morph' my stomach is "Holy Cow!"

i forget that noone else sees/notices it as much as i do, so now it's no big thing to me, but i do seem to drift off at times, watching my stomach move and dreaming about holding the baby.

that's really my main Want right now, is to hold my baby.

and to know whether it's a boy or girl so i can say its name... :)

the nursery is ready to go, all it needs is a little baby to occupy it. my cat will have to give up her favourite 'bed' soon, the diaper changing table.

5 more weeks...it's moving as slow as honey.

the baby weighs approx. 4 3/4 lbs. now. I'm measuring 34 inches. But i think i've grown since that last measurement. i go Monday for a pelvic exam. oh yay. the doc is going to check and make sure the babe is in position for delivery and all that.

I'm really torn between wanting to have a 'natural' childbirth, and what drugs i should take if i can't stand the pain. almost everyone is recommending an epidural, but i don't know if i'm comfortable with that. have any of you had experience with any other types of medication??

anywho, it's all good, i suppose. it's coming out either way. ;)

blessings,
bethany and baby~tummy

p.s.
got my bellycast done today. It was a miracle how it all worked out and is a really long story...short version: had no idea i would wake up this morning and get a belly cast done. The priginal "model" cancelled on the wonderful ladies doing a press release on the opening of their shop and they needed a pregnant lady right away (where are they when you need them??) so, i got a FREE cast done, and then it will be painted however i wish as soon as i know what i want painted on it. any suggestions??

compliments of

Mama & Me
Alane Jewel

Thank you!!!